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In a Mirror World

We all have this ideal of how we want to look, what we want our lives to be like, how we want to live etc.  I know that I definitely have this narrow field of how I want(ed) everything to look.  However, the fact of the situation is that nothing could be farther from what I desire.  My current place in life isn’t even remotely close to what I had envisioned at 29.

The first step to fixing a problem is realizing there is one.

I know there is a problem, I know that I have problems that need fixing.  Like I stated a couple weeks ago, I don’t even know where to begin.  Recently, it feels like I am stuck in the hallway of life, surrounded by doors and none of them unlocked.  I have felt like I have supported many in pushing forward and finding their unlocked doors of destiny and yet I cannot seem to find mine. My list of problems is broad but my understanding of how to begin fixing them is limited.

I am writing this from a place of honesty.  Writing this from a place of confusion in my life.  As we look at the mirror of our lives and view the reflection staring back at us, we cannot compare it to others.  Something I still do frequently.  I wish I had/was/could ________ (insert desire here).  We begin to formulate this list of things we find wrong in our lives and forget the list of blessings.  We formulate this list of things we wish we had, could do, were etc and get so blindsided by these things that we prevent ourselves from looking at the positive circumstances around us.

This is a place I have backed myself into, I have cornered myself with what I don’t have and zeroed in on those things and the good around me has become a blur.

Instead of trying to put everything back together at once, I need to take a single piece, figure out where it belongs and go from there.  Take each piece at a time and examine them before moving on to the next piece.  I need to take each area of my life, take that piece,look at it from all angles and find out how to put it back into its place.  And I need to be okay with finding pieces that no longer belong and throwing them out.  It is going to be a painful process where I am going to have to remove shards that have embedded themselves into my flesh.  However, I have to remember that it is all about slow slicing success.  No matter how painful it is going to be.

Hack it up into chunks

I may also need to take pieces and cut them up into separate chunks so that they will fit better as part of the whole.  If I want to lose over 100 pounds over the next year, I need to cut up the weight loss into smaller parts and focus on meeting the smaller goals and quit focusing on the end game.  If I want to move out, make more money, lose weight, get out of debt etc then I need to take the pieces one by one and refit them into the whole picture I have for my life. I need to quit focusing on the shattered image I see of myself and my life in the mirror and change my perspective to see the individual pieces that need fixing.

It is going to suck, it is going to hurt. I have to endure.  I need to endure.  I cannot see the completed picture, I can only see what is in front of my right now and I need to attack a section at a time and quit worrying about the whole image.  It will come together in time, I need to be patient with my future and more importantly with myself.  All things will work out for good in the end.

Let me know what parts of your life you want/need to fix.  Would love comments, thoughts, suggestions.  Thanks folks!

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You know Nothing, Jon Snow!

Ah Ygrette, sarcastic, sassy Wildling.  And she speaks what I am feeling right now.  When it comes to knowing how to lose weight and eat right there are innumerable resources at my fingertips and yet no matter how much I read, I have no idea where to start.  Lately when it comes to thinking about how to get back on track to losing weight, what workouts to do, and what lifestyle change to make, my brain turns to fog.  I have so much information that I have consumed, watched, read etc that it is an overwhelming mass of noise that I don’t even know how to sift through it all.

It has been almost a year since I have posted a blog, last fall I was extremely busy with flying out of Colorado every week as a private contractor.  Our meals during the events were catered and it was very difficult to eat right when you had no choice in what to eat; we were working 16 hour days and when meals hit, you ate whatever they served just to get energy and food back into your system.  It was hard to try and lose, or even maintain any weight loss during those 4 months of travel even though I was putting in 30K+ steps daily.

Now that I am going to post again, I need to get my life back on track.  There are certain things that are coming up within the next 6 months to a year and I need to get down to my goal weight.  I need to buckle down and focus on weight loss, eating right, and working out.  I know that a large portion of why I continue to fail is what I eat on a regular basis. Food is so yummy and I honestly do not watch what I eat.  Okay I do, I watch it go into my mouth and then regret my decision after my meal.

I think the first step I am going to take is to go gluten and dairy free, well at least as much as I possibly can.  My house is already gluten free since my mother has a gluten allergy, among other things as well.  Because I already have inherited her allergy to eggs, it is probably safe to say that I may inherit her allergy to gluten as well.  Although the chances are small, I shouldn’t take the risk.

And I know I need to make my meals for the week instead of eating out for lunch at work every day.  I think it will also help my financial matters as well instead of paying $10-15 every day for food by eating out.  Along with going Gluten and Dairy free this leads into going Paleo. I know I have stated in the past that I was going Paleo, or wanted to go Paleo; but I failed, over and over again.  However, that is okay and there is no time like the present to get on the right path and do what I said I was going to do.  It is going to take some planning and dedication to eliminate the necessary things from my diet and stop chasing my fork and make a permanent lifestyle change. And I need to remember to give myself grace and that it is all about Slow Slicing Success to achieve anything and nothing is efficiently accomplished in giant hacks. So here we go, starting again, again, again, and again.

Let me know how your lifestyle changes, weightloss, eating habits etc are going.  Would love to know what has or hasn’t worked for you all.

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